A May morning.
Light starting in the sky.
I have come here
after a long night,
its senses of loss,
its unrelenting memories of happiness.
The blossom on the apple tree is still in shadow,
its petals half-white and filled with water at the core
in which the freshness and secrecy of dawn are stored
even in the dark.
How much longer will I see girlhood in my daughter?
In other seasons
I knew every leaf on this tree.
Now I stand here
almost without seeing them
and so lost in grief
I hardly notice what is happening
as the light increases and the blossom speaks
and turns to me with blonde hair and my eyebrows
and says —
imagine if I stayed here,
even for the sake of your love
what would happen to the summer?
To the fruit?
Then holds out a dawn-soaked hand to me
whose fingers I counted at birth
and touches mine for the last time.
And falls to earth.